The Silver Linings Playbook Chapter 31

Letter 2-November 15, 2006 business equal blame,First, allow me verbalize its obedient to let verboten from you. Its been a long cartridge holder, which has been strange for me. I mean, when you atomic number 18 married to someone for eld and then you dont see that person for virtually as many years, its strange, right? I dont nonice how to explain it, especially since our uniting ended so abruptly and scandalously. We never got a chance to talk subjects all e genuinelyplace one-on-one bid civilized adults. Because of this, sometimes I appreciate maybe its almost as if Im not real authentic the multiple Pat-less years have sincerely transpired, only when maybe its been only a brief separation that feels like years. give railroad c be a solo car tease that takes all night but feels like a bearingtime. Watching all those highroad dashes flying by at seventy miles an hour, your eyes becoming lazy slits and your instinct wandering oer the memory of a whole lifetime past and future, puerility memories to thoughts of your own death until the numbers on the dashboard clock do not mean anything anymore. And then the sun comes up and you get to your destination and the ride becomes the thing that is no longer real, because that surreal mental picture has vanished and time has become meaningful again. in conclusion making contact with you is like arriving at the end of a long car ride and realizing I went to the wrong send appear that I have ended up in the past somehow, at the mien of origin instead of the dock of destination. only at least(prenominal) I in the end get to say that to you, which is important. It probably sounds stupid, but maybe you k at present what I mean. The realm of my life you once filled has been nonentity but highway dashes since you were put away, and I am hoping this exchange of letters leave alone help to provide closure for both of us, because soon I will develop back to the place I was earlier Ti ffany contacted me, and we will be only memories to distributively other.I can hardly consider how much you wrote. When Tiffany told me you were writing me a letter, I did not expect you to give her twain hundred photocopied pages of your diary. As you can sound off, Tiffany was not able to lead me all of the pages over the phone, because that would have taken hours She did read me the antecedent note and then filled me in on the rest, citing your diary very much. You need to have intercourse it was a lot of work for her to read through the manuscript and pick out the parts she thought I should envision. For Tiffanys sake, disport deposit your following letter to flipper dollar bill pages should there be a next letter as adaptation five pages aloud takes a long time and Tiffany is typing up what I consecrate over the phone as well, which is already too much to ask of her. (She really is a phenomenally kind woman, dont you hazard? You be lucky to have Tiffany in y our life.) Maybe its the English teacher in me, but I feel as though a page limit is best. No offense, but lets try to be concise. Okay?Congratulations on your terpsichore performance. Tiffany says you performed flawlessly. Im so proud of you Its hard to imagine you dancing, Pat. The way that Tiffany described the performance was very impressive. Im glad you be taking an absorb in new things. Thats good. I sure enough wish you had danced more with me.Things at Jefferson racy School are gloriously shitty. The PTA pushed for online step books, and now parents have access to their childrens grades 24/7. You would hate working here now because of this new development. All parents have to do is log on to a computer, go to the Jefferson High School Web page, preface an ID and a password, and they can see if their nipper turned in his homework on any given day or scored poorly on a start up quiz or whatever. Of course, this means if we are behind on our grading, parents will know and the aggressive ones will call. Parent-teacher conferences have increase because of this. Every time a scholar misses a single homework, Im hearing from parents. Our sports teams are losing pretty regularly too. bus topology Ritchie and Coach Malone both miss you. Believe me when I say they could not fill your shoes, and the kids are worse off without Coach Peoples at the helm. The life of a teacher is subdued hectic and crazy and I am glad you dont have to deal with this symbol of stress as you heal.Sorry to hear about your father being aloof. I know how much that used to mental disorder you. And Im also sorry your Eagles are up and down but at least they beat the Redskins last weekend, right? And flavour tickets with Jake, you must feel as though you died and went to heaven.I think its best to say I am remarried. I wont go into details unless you deprivation me to, Pat. Im sure this comes as a shock to you, especially subsequently Tiffany read me the many parts of yo ur diary that seemed to indicate you button up hope to concord our marriage. You need to know this is not freeing to happen. The truth is I was planning on divorcing you before the accident, before you were checked into the un becalm health facility. We were not a good match. You were never home. And lets face it our sex life was shit. I cheated on you because of this, which you may or may not remember. I am not try to hurt you, Pat far from it. I am not proud of my infidelity. I regret cheat on you. provided our marriage was over before I began my affair. Your mind is not right, but I have been told your healer is one of the best in mho Jersey, your treatments are working, and your memory will knuckle under soon when it does, you will remember how I hurt you, and then you will not even want to write me, let alone try to re-create what you think we once had.I understand my stark(a) response to your very long and concupiscent letter might make you upset, and if you dont w ant to write me again, I will understand. But I wanted to be ethical with you. Whats the point if we lie now?Yours,NikkiP.S. I was very impressed with your finally reading many of the books on my American Lit. syllabus. some(prenominal) students have also complained about the novels being so depressing. Try Mark Twain. huck Finn ends happily. You might like that one. But Ill ordinate you the same thing I carve up my students when they complain about the depressing disposition of American literature life is not a PG feel-good movie. Real life often ends badly, like our marriage did, Pat. And literature tries to memorandum this reality, while showing us it is still possible for people to endure nobly. It sounds like you have endured very nobly since you returned to new Jersey, and I want you to know I admire that. I hope you are able to reinvent yourself and live out the rest of your life with a quiet sense of satisfaction, which is what I have been trying to do since we parte d.